Hate And Betrayal Monologue
I feel hate and betrayal by you. That you really do hate me. For what I have no clue, I only wished you could open up to me and let me know where I went wrong with you. But I know and can accept the fact that you are not near that step yet to deal with me at this moment. All I know is that I love you very much and it hurts me that you can never say it back. "You too" isn't the same as saying it. You have no problem telling your father Sally Stasha or James "I love you". So why me? Why? I'm the only one from day one that's been in your corner. Trying to understand everything and anything about you. Reached out to therapy per your request and it still doesn't seem to measure up to you or anyone that are standing next to you. I guess I'm just
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beating a dead horse right. It is what it is and I am not able to change that. For what ever reason you feel this way towards me, I apologize. But I can no longer go along dealing with this type of treatment especially when it's up in my face. As it cuts me even deeper. My pain that I have been dealing with in my heart has been off and on with you for such a long time.
I'm at a loss with you Brittany like I said I'm beating myself up over what I've done to you so badly for me to feel the tremendous hate you have inside of you. You say you don't feel that way. But actions speak louder than words. I say that I wash my hands from all of this bs for a reason. I guess what I'm saying to you is, that when the day comes for you to accept me as your mother and find forgiveness in your heart ( which will only come if you share of my mistake in you). Then we can move forward with a mother and daughter relationship. As of this moment we don't even have a relationship. I have always expressed my love to you Brittany as its never been fake or superficial to you. If you have ever felt that, then you somehow need to work on letting your walls that you have built up over the years down. I'll forever love you until the day I pass. But I can assure you that I cannot be treated with disrespect and just having that gut feeling you cannot stand my presence. As I feel this every time I'm in your presence. You owe me nothing Brittany. I owe you nothing but my love for you I will forever cherish. Have a truly blessed evening. Love
mom
beating a dead horse right. It is what it is and I am not able to change that. For what ever reason you feel this way towards me, I apologize. But I can no longer go along dealing with this type of treatment especially when it's up in my face. As it cuts me even deeper. My pain that I have been dealing with in my heart has been off and on with you for such a long time.
I'm at a loss with you Brittany like I said I'm beating myself up over what I've done to you so badly for me to feel the tremendous hate you have inside of you. You say you don't feel that way. But actions speak louder than words. I say that I wash my hands from all of this bs for a reason. I guess what I'm saying to you is, that when the day comes for you to accept me as your mother and find forgiveness in your heart ( which will only come if you share of my mistake in you). Then we can move forward with a mother and daughter relationship. As of this moment we don't even have a relationship. I have always expressed my love to you Brittany as its never been fake or superficial to you. If you have ever felt that, then you somehow need to work on letting your walls that you have built up over the years down. I'll forever love you until the day I pass. But I can assure you that I cannot be treated with disrespect and just having that gut feeling you cannot stand my presence. As I feel this every time I'm in your presence. You owe me nothing Brittany. I owe you nothing but my love for you I will forever cherish. Have a truly blessed evening. Love
mom