I Am Weighted Down By Anxiety

What stops you from doing what you love? For me I am weighted down by anxiety. Anxiety has many affects on my life. There is many challenges that it causes me. How does my anxiety affect others around me. This is how I deal with the anxiety. Anxiety has many affects on my life. To me it is like being in a vast open sea and I can not swim. It has a sharp fangs and a rough bite. I can not stop worrying about everything and anything. Another problem with it is I have a hard time going to sleep and waking up. My socal life is limited, so I rarely talk to anyone unless I have to. The control it has on my life is one of a parasite. My anxiety causes me frequent challenges I have to face every day. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go
to bed I am in a constant state of worry. Going to school everyday I worry about my homework and my tests more than the average student should. When I try to write a paper it’s always a gigantic pile of stress and panic. Recently I had to present in biology which forced me to talk in front of the class. It felt like my heart was going to burst. Whenever I present that familiar feeling grabs a hold of me and doesn’t let go until it’s over. Every time I try to calm down the feeling won’t go away. If it finally does it lingers in the darkness watching my every move. No matter how hard I try it doesn’t go away and I don’t know if it ever will. The anxiety I have affects my love ones around me. They always ask me “Why don’t you socialize?” or “It’s just a paper get over it.”
I always respond with “ I don’t like talking to other people.” or “I know it is but i can’t stop worrying about it.” My sister had told me “ It hurts me to see you worry like this. I try to help but I just can’t.” Some people have given up on me and I have lost friends because of this. The more it happens the harder it is to trust and the pain grows and grows like a plant. Feeding on my life source to keep itself alive. I tying my hardest to get over this for them, so they don’t have to worry about me like they do. Anxiety plays a huge role in my life. Affecting my everyday life, causing hard challenges for me to deal with, and hurting the ones around me. In the end why should you care? Well people like me are going through the same thing, some of my classmates are, and some people don’t have this problem at all. For the ones who do we have to be strong and pull through in the end, even though it hurts.